Chad has opened the door to the universe and it is time to begin my journey and walk through  with an open heart and an open mind. The time as come in my life to ask the questions.

Chad's death has taught me that I must learn to be patient toward all that is unsolved in my heart, and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. I don't need to be afraid. Maybe the answers cannot be given because we, as humans, would not be able to live them.

 Chad's passing provided me with the opportunity to re-examine my belief system and question the concept of heaven and a higher power. I may have never attempted this journey into self-awareness without losing my son.After he died, I needed answers.

 Chad's death taught me that I should live everything.  Live in the NOW.  Live the questions.  Life is too short for spite, but long enough for love. And love lives on forever and forever.


Perhaps l will find the questions, gradually, without noticing it, and live along some distant day into the answers.